It’s been a while since my last post. As I have posted previously, I don’t have much of a life. Those that are behind this oppression, are intent to not allow me to have much of a life. It’s interesting that I was able to figure this whole spiderweb/rabbit hole out on my own. What’s even more interesting, or frightening is that there is an actual name for it…Targeted Individual, and there is a faction of the government that is actively involved in targeting individuals. There are literally thousands of targeted individuals, and the term they use for the targeting is targeted harassment. However, based on what has happened to me harassment is the wrong term. This is oppression not harassment (Thank you M for bringing the targeted individual program to my attention). I will have a post soon on the whole targeting program and how it ties into what I have been through and the company that I worked for. 

Today, I am asking a question. Is it a rattlesnake or is it a derailleur? Below is a wikipedia link to describe a derailleur. 

Derailleur – Wikipedia

A derailleur is a device that is used on multi-geared bikes to allow the chain to move up or down a gear (It’s the gear changer). Many bikes have a front and rear derailleur. The rear derailleur specifically can be fairly noisy when freewheeling as the chain continues to move through the rear derailleur. This is especially true if the rear derailleur is not adjusted properly. 

Rattlesnakes are fairly amazing creatures in my opinion. Many people hate them or fear them unnecessarily. After all, throughout history many more people have become ill or died from disease from the varmint that snakes eat as opposed to snake bites. That is not to say that venomous snakes should not be respected and avoided when possible. Rattlesnakes will often rattle when they are alarmed as a warning to predators and people to stay away.

I have had an issue with my left sciatic nerve for a couple of months now. I have never had severe sciatica, but I can tell you that it is hard to live with. I did not strain anything or feel like I pulled something. To be honest, I feel like this is similar to the “mini stroke” that I had in that my sciatica is not due to natural causes. I will spare you my rant on what I truly believe. 

I have been to physical therapy and a chiropractor to seek some relief. They have helped some. One thing that I feel has helped me a lot with this is walking 4-8 miles a day, 4-5 days a week. I try to keep a decent pace 15-16 min miles. Seeing as I have had to stop my gym routine for 8 weeks or so now, walking has been literally my only form of exercise (in addition to some specific stretches and sciatica exercises). 

Anyway, one of the places I like to walk is a trail that parallels a bike path. I usually have one earbud while listening to a podcast or music, while leaving the other earbud out so that I can hear and be somewhat aware of my surroundings. More than once I have been startled from the sound of a bike chain freewheeling through a noisy rear derailleur coming up behind me. It’s amazing how from a short distance that noise can resemble the initial buzz/rattle of a rattlesnakes warning. Especially if my mind is lost in thought, or into a song/podcast whatever.  Thus, to my point….is it a Rattlesnake or a derailleur? 

So let’s say that I had a friend that had helped me a few years ago, and that I have repaid many times over. However, I always said that I still owe you. For whatever reason, maybe I thought it was easier for her to ask when she needed help. Maybe because I am the type of person that literally never asks anyone for anything, but I am almost always there if someone needs something. To be clear, there are people in my life that have helped me immensely, and I am truly blessed and thankful for their help. What if that “I still owe you” was recorded and used as a strike against my character? What if this same person has sent me several letters over the years thanking me for always being there for her? What if this woman’s grown daughter sent me a letter thanking me for always being willing to help her mother? What if this woman was someone that trusted me to care for her toddler daughter? Yet none of what shows me in a good light is ever revealed? 

How about a different take. What if I made some really embarrassing and stupid mistakes? See my original post for more on this story. What if one of those things was also recorded and also used as a strike against my character literally everywhere I go? What if I am just a person who makes a stupid mistake sometimes, but there is an entity that has an agenda to smear me as someone I am not? I believe the agenda has much more to do with me being able to prove this than it does with me having bad character. Regardless of the reason or whether many people believe their BS. 

I think many people (myself included sometimes) get caught up in the most dramatic possible outcome. Yet oftentimes it’s just a fucking derailleur.